Saturday, May 1, 2010

An (un)fairy tale!

Why is it that real life stories have a fairy tale start but seldom do they have a happy fairy tale ending? Don't know how will this story end or has it ended already? She comes across as a tough, rigid, strong and confident girl who knows what she wants in life and how. She appears as the one who is just not interested in relationships. Many say she has a 'commitment phobia' but that was untill she met him. Let us describe 'him' later.

Lets first visualize her. With kohl smeared eyes, dark coloured boring T-shirts, messy hair and to complement all this, a manly gait giving a loud and clear signal 'Dare to even think of messing with me and baby a strong kick between you legs is what you get !' The reason for this attitude is best known to her. But, honestly with a rebellious attitude like that, which sane , normal, straight guy would care to even look once at a girl who is nothing but a personified example of a man trapped in a woman's body?

Then, one day she sees this guy, who, as per public standards is not very tall, very dark (okay dark), not very handsome, does not embody the best facial features but when she saw him ,the twinkle of his eyes made something inside her churn. Suddenly she realized that something strange had happened. She was attracted towards him, his husky voice made her go weak in the knees, she did not know why and how. And what happened next was a series of events- expected or unexpected that changed everything- for good or bad, for right or wrong, no one knows.

One thing led to another. They started liking each other's presence. She enjoyed his mere presence, was intimidaed by his smile, his eyes, okay lets cut the long story short- she was in love with him. She found him to be the most handsome man on this 'Planet'(may be the kohl she applied to her eyes for ages caused some defect to her eyesight!). As expected, his presence made her shed her 'angry and tough girl image'. She started dressing up in a salwar kameez every once in a while(though she was extremely uncomfortable in it and cursed herself from within sometimes).He told her things that she never heard and made her believe that even she was beautiful and prettier than she had thought(how can girls fall for that crap?). They were two imperfect individuals who were perfect for each other. She was in the happiest phase of her life.The rebel who was stubborn was now a tame animal for him. She did not mind changing herself for him (and she did that out of her own will!). She started thinking about how could she improve herself that would mak him happy(she never did that to even please her teachers or parents or friends).

But then, the typical male aura overcaptured his senses and it was realization time for him. Suddenly something wrong happened with him- was it the fear, the insecurity or the fact that he did not find her important or interesting anymore that made him act in a strange manner? I would like to believe it was the male ego that overpowered his senses. He started ignoring her for reasons best known to him. He did not even care to give an explanation and she feared to demand one(fear???? the word did not even appear in her dictionary once!). She kept coaxing herself that all would be fine(inspired by the infamous 'all is well' dialogue, blame it to the hindi movies!). She kept messaging him, hoping that he would reply back- though deep inside she knew it and we all know it too- he did not reply back(male chauvinistic pig!).

Now, all she was left with was- the new girly wardrobe that she had got just to impress him and make him fall deeply, madly truly in love with her(Love- the word she once hated and dreaded as if it was more dangerous than herpes). She still laughed her jolly best in an attempt to hide her grief, sorrow and pain. She dreaded being alone for, being alone meant thinking about the times they shared and that would make her weep. She started hating weekends as all she had to do on weekends was eat, stare at the screen of her computer and secretly wish he would call(though he never did).

And now she fears going back to her past self- dark, rigid and strong(in short - pretentious) because if she returns this time,she would never come back again not for him , not for anybody.

Is it too difficult to understand that she is a normal girl with normal feelings(feelings it is!)? She too likes to be treated, she too loves roses and orchids(though she claims otherwise). All she is craving for is care, love, to cuddle up with her man when she wakes up in the morning, arms that wrap around her, a kiss on her forehead that confirms' I am there for you' and she is ready to give in all that it takes to make a relationship work.

Her heart aches when she sees other couples walking hand in hand, exchanging sweet nothings.
Kudos to the guy who had the potential, the strength and the heart to break this strong and confident girl into pieces, to first make her go weak in her knees and then leave her confused and weak hearted. He has transormed her- from "an Extrovert Loner" to a "Loner"..........

6 comments:

  1. awsome one
    should deninately get an award....

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  2. Awesome yaaaaaaar urvashi.....thts really touching....

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  3. sooo deeep feelings tht are lost and only could be found in those who live in their fairy world y is tht a girl always gets shattered after breakup
    y doesnt she understands tht he didnt deserved me y cant she feel good about herself than totally becoming dependent on him
    i understand everyone needs care, love, attachment but uptil wat extent do u all need it cant u think for urself for a second
    everyone says love is all abt give and take but after a certain point its always give and never take
    girls always gives something or other to him but have u ever seen a boy giving and never taking anything back
    learn to take back wats ur and please dont cry afterwards saying i did so much for him and he didnt even cared for it

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  4. nice work... keep it up!!!

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  5. Life is a series of awakenings. Our desires do not always culminate into 'reality bindings' but yes certain moments will forever stand tall. Just remember them with fondness

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